Ever tried to change something small – like a habit, a pattern, a way you approach a daily practice – and find yourself thinking, “Why can’t I just do this?”‍

It looks so simple from the outside, but what feels like changing a surface habit is often tied to something deeper within us. 

And that deeper thing is affecting how we move through the world and – yes, you guessed it – how effective we are at implementing new things.

It’s why change is so disorienting, even if what we’re trying to change seems simple – like adding strength training into our day or, like the people in Through the Looking Glass, shifting from asking your deck a question to having a conversation with it instead. 

And I want to be clear: It’s NOT resistance. It’s not even self-sabotage.  It’s your mind trying to reorient itself around a new way of doing something that you’ve always done.

When you’ve worked with a tool like tarot or oracle cards for years – and you’ve relied on the deck, the guidebook, the structure, or the teacher for guidance – that way of working becomes part of your internal map.

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Letting go of that map, even a little, can make you feel like you’re losing your footing.

Because what’s really changing isn’t just the way you do it.
You’re actually changing the relationship to that  thing.  And that is a much heavier lift. 

Growth hides in these tiny pivots. Those moments don’t look dramatic, but they’re where the deeper rewiring happens – in the small acts of choosing to meet the familiar in a new way.

So if you find yourself in that space, where the “simple” thing feels anything but simple, have a little grace with yourself.

These shifts are asking something much bigger underneath the surface. They’re asking you to move the internal “furniture” of who you are and how you move through the world.

And just summoning the courage to try and change something is no small thing.

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